I didnt call you not because I dont care but because I couldn't....my stepmother was on the phone with her dumb friends and they hide their cell phones...I wanted to call and talk to you so bad i ended up crying myself to sleep with my blankie clutched to myself...i dont go anywhere without it anymore not even tenis it goes with me in my tennis bag....I know you were trying to be nice in your journal entry about me and yeah it did mae me feel a little bit better but im just really confused...when we broke up you said you wouldnt talk about guys or whateer around me and yet the sametime i read that entry about me i read one about this guyy ur with or want to be with....it made me feel like shit and made me cry even more...I wanted to ask you something really important but no your leaving for the weekend so i guess itd be pointless which sucks because its something i really really wanted to happen...well ill try to call you later i guess if your not to busy....